I hope writing this feels good, because not much has lately.
As of late, I’ve fallen on hard times. It’s really hard to put into words, but a certain sadness had settled onto me like a thick fog. Last night I spent the evening with a couple pints of Guinness, watched an Ella Fitzgerald concert, and then Closer. The effect of which can also be attained by: Grabbing dagger. Insert into heart. Turn counterclockwise. Breathe out.
That’s right. Sometimes I get incredibly sad for no good reason and talk about it in an online journal. But only one of these two things makes me semi-unique. The other makes me just like everybody else. It's about all I know right now; not much.
I guess I just miss people. Fall needs to hurry up and get here. Yes, I know. It’s June 2-way too early for that kind of talk. But it’s just one of the many thoughts locked in orbit around my head.
“These seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days.”
4 comments:
YOu are not the only one who feels that way. It's kind of hard sometimes, but everyone will be together again come fall. Then it will be soo great (you know that).
Hang in there MW!
I can totally sympathize with your feelings. I felt that way over Winter Break and during the week I was home between spring and summer (when I moved back up here for the CA job).
I don't know what it is about San Marcos or the people here; Maybe it's just the fact that both of us have our lives deeply rooted here now and we're not ready to change that just yet.
But whatever the reason, you'll be back in a couple days and we will go have our long-talked-about coffee date. Maybe Jeff Buckley will join us.
hey kell,
I appreciate the nice words. i'm off in a few minutes (to marcos). you've been a good friend over the last couple months, and it's a good feeling to have.
you're awesome!
Be encouraged! You are loved!
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